BlessHisName
September 13th, 2007, 01:57 PM
I don't know if any of you remember my prayer request from about my problem with anger and feeling like maybe I'm not really saved after all. I mean, if I was I would have more self control, right? I have REALLY been worried. I believe that the rapture of the church is VERY, VERY, VERY soon! So, of course, the enemy has REALLY been messing with my head. To the point that I was honestly getting SCARED for the rapture to come. And, of course, God being the AWESOME Father that He is proved to me without ANY doubt that I am being stupid and that the devil is a LIAR!!
Our church has service on Sunday afternoon and Tuesday and Thursday evening. On Sunday I was talking with the guy that does the worship on Tuesday and it was decided that I would start being part of the Tuesday Praise Team. I normally don't go during the week because we get out so late and it is hard to get the kids up for school if they aren't in bed by 8:00.
Anyway, I got there for practice and our "Tuesday Preacher"s wife ran over to me all excited because I never come on Tuesdays. I told her that I was going to start singing. She got so excited ~ which I thought was pretty strange! She started telling me that the pianist dislocated her shoulder, the guitarist had an emergency, the drummer was sick. They had been praying that SOMEONE would be able to LEAD worship. And she was so happy that I was there to do it. ME!! I DON'T LEAD! I SING BACKUP!!
I was terrified!! I told The Lord that if this is what He wanted from me I would DEFINATELY need Him to annoint me!! There were no musicians so I was going to have to sing with a CD. I could only find a couple of songs that I felt comfortable with. And of those I wasn't used to singing the lead. I would get part way through the song and either the lead was too high or I couldn't stay on the lead and would fall back to the alto part. It was a disaster!! I finally went out to my car and got one of my CD's. We found the music so that the congregation could follow and after much prodding I was finally able to convince the sound guy to blend the voices instead of leaving me in the lead. The sound booth was having problems so I didn't even get to go over the songs before it was time to start.
I was so scared! We prayed ~ of course ~ and the minute that I stepped up on the platform The Lord filled me with such a peace and annointing that everything flowed like I had been doing it for years! I am one of those people that is fine raising her hands during worship ~ after several years anyway! I can even sing a solo as long as I walk up, don't look at anyone, sing the song and leave. But speaking to the whole church and praying in public terrified me ~ the devils work, no doubt! But I wasn't even the least bit nervous, didn't get tongue tied during prayer and even enjoyed being the "leader"! And we felt His presence so strongly too! This is DEFINATLY 100% GOD!!
I have been asking for a long time for Him to use me in a way that could make a difference. He NEVER would have allowed me to do this ~ much less set up the situation and annointed me to do it ~ if I WASN'T 100% HIS!!
Thank you Lord for trusting me with this HUGE responsibility and for annointing me to be able to do it!!
Our church has service on Sunday afternoon and Tuesday and Thursday evening. On Sunday I was talking with the guy that does the worship on Tuesday and it was decided that I would start being part of the Tuesday Praise Team. I normally don't go during the week because we get out so late and it is hard to get the kids up for school if they aren't in bed by 8:00.
Anyway, I got there for practice and our "Tuesday Preacher"s wife ran over to me all excited because I never come on Tuesdays. I told her that I was going to start singing. She got so excited ~ which I thought was pretty strange! She started telling me that the pianist dislocated her shoulder, the guitarist had an emergency, the drummer was sick. They had been praying that SOMEONE would be able to LEAD worship. And she was so happy that I was there to do it. ME!! I DON'T LEAD! I SING BACKUP!!
I was terrified!! I told The Lord that if this is what He wanted from me I would DEFINATELY need Him to annoint me!! There were no musicians so I was going to have to sing with a CD. I could only find a couple of songs that I felt comfortable with. And of those I wasn't used to singing the lead. I would get part way through the song and either the lead was too high or I couldn't stay on the lead and would fall back to the alto part. It was a disaster!! I finally went out to my car and got one of my CD's. We found the music so that the congregation could follow and after much prodding I was finally able to convince the sound guy to blend the voices instead of leaving me in the lead. The sound booth was having problems so I didn't even get to go over the songs before it was time to start.
I was so scared! We prayed ~ of course ~ and the minute that I stepped up on the platform The Lord filled me with such a peace and annointing that everything flowed like I had been doing it for years! I am one of those people that is fine raising her hands during worship ~ after several years anyway! I can even sing a solo as long as I walk up, don't look at anyone, sing the song and leave. But speaking to the whole church and praying in public terrified me ~ the devils work, no doubt! But I wasn't even the least bit nervous, didn't get tongue tied during prayer and even enjoyed being the "leader"! And we felt His presence so strongly too! This is DEFINATLY 100% GOD!!
I have been asking for a long time for Him to use me in a way that could make a difference. He NEVER would have allowed me to do this ~ much less set up the situation and annointed me to do it ~ if I WASN'T 100% HIS!!
Thank you Lord for trusting me with this HUGE responsibility and for annointing me to be able to do it!!