~ Children In Heaven ~ 2 Cor 1:3-4

[jayna]

Yesterday was my sister's birthday.Tammy would have been 43.She died 2 years ago March 17,2007.
My Mom and Dad and sister and now my son all gone to be with the Lord.I wonder what they're doing in Heaven?Do you guys ever wonder that?
Ryan has always been the kind of kid that when he got something on his mind he wanted or wanted to do,that kid would not give up and worry me until I gave in.I know that my son is the same in Heaven(personality wise)as he was here at least I think he is and if that's the case, he is worrying somebody over in glory.
Oh won't it be wonderful when we see our savior and all those love ones again and what a reunion it is gonna be when we all see our children again.:hug:hug:hug::hug


Hi friend!!! :wave
So many of your loved ones have gone to be with the Lord. God bless you.

I wonder (and ask God) all the time what everyone is doing up there. It sure would be nice if we could get a glimpse... I stare into heaven sometimes as if I'm waiting for Him to show me!!!
I think they are the same people they were here... afterall isn't that what the 'soul' is?!!
It will be soooo wonderful and I can't wait to go home. You are so right, it will be a wonderful reunion. :hug

If you haven't seen Randy Alcorn's site... here is the part with the articles... scroll down to Eternity/Heaven and read some of the stuff there. You can dream till your heart's desire!!! http://epm.org/resources/articles/article-index.htm

This is one of my favorite articles there.... http://www.epm.org/artman2/publish/Eternity_life_in_heaven/Headed_Home.shtml

[Lucinda]

Hi friend!!! :wave
So many of your loved ones have gone to be with the Lord. God bless you.

I wonder (and ask God) all the time what everyone is doing up there. It sure would be nice if we could get a glimpse... I stare into heaven sometimes as if I'm waiting for Him to show me!!!
I think they are the same people they were here... afterall isn't that what the 'soul' is?!!
It will be soooo wonderful and I can't wait to go home. You are so right, it will be a wonderful reunion. :hug

If you haven't seen Randy Alcorn's site... here is the part with the articles... scroll down to Eternity/Heaven and read some of the stuff there. You can dream till your heart's desire!!! http://epm.org/resources/articles/article-index.htm

This is one of my favorite articles there.... http://www.epm.org/artman2/publish/Eternity_life_in_heaven/Headed_Home.shtml


I haven't been on in a couple of days and I do miss the fellowship with you all.I made Ryan an album on my profile page.
Thanks Jayna for the link sites.....:hugTonie

[jayna]

I haven't been on in a couple of days and I do miss the fellowship with you all.I made Ryan an album on my profile page.
Thanks Jayna for the link sites.....:hugTonie

Your welcome.
What a good looking guy Ryan is..... can't wait to meet him when we get home. I'm sure him and Jason have met and are having a ball. Add all the rest of our kids that have gone home and I can't even imagine what they might be up to!!! :ring

Today my pastor started teaching on the Fall feasts. He started with the Feast of Trumpets today and said this feast depicts the calling out of the church at the rapture. He quoted 1 Thess 4:16-17 and explained it. He said this is what we await and it was coming soon. Of course I'd already heard all this but when someone starts talking about it I get excited.
I truly can't wait.
He did talk about what we were suppose to be doing until that time... and I was convicted of a couple of things but I have a big feeling I will find out when I get there that I missed alot of opportunities when I could have done something and did nothing. I'll probably 'score' low in that area!!! But I have a feeling everyone will feel that way. Oh well, I still wanna go home.
Most days its all I can do to get 'me' through this life. Emotions are so roller coastery! you can never tell with me!!! What a life!!

So glad you shared Ryan's pics with us, he is such a nice looking guy and we all know what a big hole it has left in your heart. We're all there with you.

Love to ya :hug :hug

[Lucinda]

I know what you mean Jayna.Every morning when I wake up the very first thought,every morning is "Ryan is dead"and the day goes from there.Some days I picture Ryan in heaven and he has been released from the things in this world and I can get through the day knowing Ryan is in a much better place,a happier place without the heartache that he endured while on this earth and safe from the temptations of the devil.
Other days I find my self feeling very selfish because no matter what I want my son back.
The last 5 1/2 months I have been so wrapped up in this suffering that I haven't been working for the Lord.I've been sitting at the feet of Jesus and when I get my strength back from this blow(Ryan dying)then I'll go back to work.
I do hope the Rapture is just any time now because I am so tired of carrying the pain and suffering around.Some days it's all I can do to make it through .
:faint:faint:faint

[Lucinda]

Oh and thanks Jayna about Ryan.He is a great looking kid.It was his spirit that made him beautiful.Ryan has such a sweet,sweet spirit.He always had a smile on his face and he never met a stranger and the friends that boy had.So I know that him and Jason has hit it off along with all the others in Heaven.

[jayna]

I know what you mean Jayna.Every morning when I wake up the very first thought,every morning is "Ryan is dead"and the day goes from there.Some days I picture Ryan in heaven and he has been released from the things in this world and I can get through the day knowing Ryan is in a much better place,a happier place without the heartache that he endured while on this earth and safe from the temptations of the devil.
Other days I find my self feeling very selfish because no matter what I want my son back.
The last 5 1/2 months I have been so wrapped up in this suffering that I haven't been working for the Lord.I've been sitting at the feet of Jesus and when I get my strength back from this blow(Ryan dying)then I'll go back to work.
I do hope the Rapture is just any time now because I am so tired of carrying the pain and suffering around.Some days it's all I can do to make it through .
:faint:faint:faint

With me I'm more used to the fact he's gone but am very tired of the same old hurts so I think 'I'm still here?' When this happened I would have sworn to you I would not be here by the end of the year. I couldn't do it, no way. But that year came and went and then another and another... amazing. I've written here before that I wonder where God is all the time, but I know he must be holding me up else I wouldn't be still standing.
I feel alot better when I think of where he's at but like you I'm selfish and want him here. I look at all the changes that have gone on since he left and can't believe he wasn't a part of them. I don't understand why he was taken from his twin sons. I wish he could have been here to meet his niece when she was born, he would spoil her to death. So now I just can't wait till we're all reunited.. never to part again.

My SS class gets together alot and does different things and I like that.. but when it comes to witnessing to others I am afraid I will come off as depressed and I don't want to do that. There is a girl I know who lost her child about a year ago to leukemia and I still haven't gotten around to go see her. I've ran into her a couple of times but I haven't visited with her. I have just got to do that, but everytime I think about it I feel like I'm not up to it.
I know, after 5 years I should be I guess but like I said my emotions are so up and down you never know. I basically go to work, get the things done I need to and go back home. I'm not much of a people person anymore at all.

Everybody loved Jason too, at his funeral it was standing room only and there were tornado warnings and it was pouring down rain. I know alot of those people weren't saved though; I know of a couple who have came to Christ through this and hope there were many more I haven't heard about.
My pastor tried to use it as a 'wake up' call if you will so that this may happen.

Lord, we're ready to go, are we almost there?

[Lucinda]

When my Mom died I was 19 and Ryan was 3 months old.She had ovarian cancer and the last 6 months of her life she suffered with pain like I had not seen before.Right at the end the pain became so unbearable and the Morphine would no longer work.My Mom was ready to go home and be with the Lord.When she died I knew she was so much better in Heaven.The pain,the awful pain was finally gone and I found some comfort in knowing she wasn't hurting anymore.Oh I missed her and still do.
My sister battled breast cancer and I believe the treatments damaged her heart.She died very unexpectedly from an enlarged heart March,2007.Tammy was 40 and when she developed breast cancer her health really went down and she was sick up until the day she died.She left two teenage boys.Tammy was the middle sister and all three of us,my older sister and I were very close.
I never wanted to go through something so sudden and such a shock as Tammy's death.
I never seen Ryan's death coming.Never even thought he would die.We all picture are children growing up while we grow old.I loved my Mom and sister so much but I knew that I had to pick up and carry on with life and some how I did.
I don't know how to pick this up.I wouldn't even call it depression.A part of me has died the night Ryan left this world.I know that I will never be a whole person in this life now,ever.
The Twins you mentioned were Jason's babies?A part of him lives through those babies and I know those twins hold an extra special place in your heart.
I'm like you I'm not much of a people person because I know that the sadness that I carry make people uncomfortable but I don't really care because I don't want to be around anyone right now.I kinda just stay in my thoughts these days.
Love you Jayna:hug we are not going to carry this cross for ever.One day we'll trade it for a crown:thumb

[jayna]

When my Mom died I was 19 and Ryan was 3 months old.She had ovarian cancer and the last 6 months of her life she suffered with pain like I had not seen before.Right at the end the pain became so unbearable and the Morphine would no longer work.My Mom was ready to go home and be with the Lord.When she died I knew she was so much better in Heaven.The pain,the awful pain was finally gone and I found some comfort in knowing she wasn't hurting anymore.Oh I missed her and still do.
My sister battled breast cancer and I believe the treatments damaged her heart.She died very unexpectedly from an enlarged heart March,2007.Tammy was 40 and when she developed breast cancer her health really went down and she was sick up until the day she died.She left two teenage boys.Tammy was the middle sister and all three of us,my older sister and I were very close.
I never wanted to go through something so sudden and such a shock as Tammy's death.
I never seen Ryan's death coming.Never even thought he would die.We all picture are children growing up while we grow old.I loved my Mom and sister so much but I knew that I had to pick up and carry on with life and some how I did.
I don't know how to pick this up.I wouldn't even call it depression.A part of me has died the night Ryan left this world.I know that I will never be a whole person in this life now,ever.
The Twins you mentioned were Jason's babies?A part of him lives through those babies and I know those twins hold an extra special place in your heart.
I'm like you I'm not much of a people person because I know that the sadness that I carry make people uncomfortable but I don't really care because I don't want to be around anyone right now.I kinda just stay in my thoughts these days.
Love you Jayna:hug we are not going to carry this cross for ever.One day we'll trade it for a crown:thumb


I've still got my mom and my sister but I lost my dad of cancer back '89. Now that I've lost Jason I'm terrified of losing someone else. We are very close also and I really need them. I use to go to the cemetary and just sit when dad died, I needed to talk to him so badly. But I agree, this is different. We can't pick it up. Wasn't suppose to happen. Jason is buried right next to dad now but the cemetary is not safe anymore, so I just drive by or get out only for a minute and glance around me at all times.

Jason had bought that motorcyle so I worried and prayed all the time for God to keep him safe but I guess he had other plans because thats how he died. Never forget the knock on my door that fateful night.

Jason has a twin brother and he also has twin sons. They are 10 now and miss their dad very much. Their mom doesn't like them discussing it though, so the only time they talk about him is with us as far as I know. They are very special and I worry about them.
Jason's brother was in bad shape for awhile; he was on drugs bad and would have died if his wife hadn't gotten pregnant with their first child. But now he is very involved in the church and has grown in the Lord so much. Truly is amazing. It took awhile but God turned everything around in that area. God knew just when to give him (us) that little girl, if not for her none of us would have made it.

People seem to be uncomfortable around me too. Even the people in the SS class are really nice but none of them have been through this so they steer clear of the conversation. And friends I had before Jason died didn't stay in contact after he died. Don't want to get depressed I guess.
To tell you the truth I don't much care, like you say... I tend to stay in my own thoughts and when other people are laughing and carrying on I just don't think anything is too funny. Happy go lucky I am not... that went bye bye.

Can't wait to trade these crosses for crowns!!!! :hug :hug

[pumkin67]

I'm the same way. I don't even bring Ricky up to most people. They change the subject so fast and it makes me mad. Ricky lived, he is still a very big part of my life. I went to the cemetery today. I have a big round rock where his friends wrote notes to him. It is slowly fading, and people have almost quit writing to him. I don't want him to be forgotten. He's with me everyday. Like you said, it's not depression, it a sadness that we live with and a fear of knowing how life can change so fast. My nephew was in an accident today. It was so hard to go to the hospital because of what I knew could have happened and then my mind was wandering because this was the same hospital where Ricky was born. The doctors are watching some bleeding in his head. The truck flipped 3 times and hit a tree. I praise God that he is still here, that his parents don't have to know this hurt. It's like now I always watching for what could happen next. I never really thought before that I could lose a child, now I know. I panic everytime my daughter is a few minutes late. She's 19 and I know I can't wait up for her the rest of my life. It's so scary to let them go. We will never be the same, it's like an innocence was lost.

[Faith&Hope]

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