~ Children In Heaven ~ 2 Cor 1:3-4

[Amanda's mom]

Thanks, what beautiful pics of a beautiful boy!!!
Yes, I read 'Heaven' right after he died..... I had to read everything I could find on where he was at!!! Funny, we don't think much about heaven unless we have someone there who is close to us. :scratch

Jason died in April 2004 at age 28 in a motorcycle accident. He left behind his twin brother and twin sons of his own. I hate it and want Jesus to come get us.
:hug :bighug :hug

[ihope]

hugs for all! I miss my Erica too!

:hug :hug

Can't wait for the rapture!

[Faith&Hope]

Thanks, what beautiful pics of a beautiful boy!!!
Yes, I read 'Heaven' right after he died..... I had to read everything I could find on where he was at!!! Funny, we don't think much about heaven unless we have someone there who is close to us. :scratch

Jason died in April 2004 at age 28 in a motorcycle accident. He left behind his twin brother and twin sons of his own. I hate it and want Jesus to come get us.

I'm so sorry Jayna.
Jason's twin must be so lost. I know my ds is lost without his brother. They were like twins, only 2 yrs apart. They did everything together. It's heartbreaking. His sister 17 held up a picture of Mario for prom and graduation. So sad.
You have twin grandsons. What a Blessing. We were hoping Mario's gf of 5 yrs, Amanda, was pregnant. I know, that's bad. It wasn't in God's plan. I wanted part of him.

I hate it too. Come soon, Lord Jesus. So much heartbreak in this world.

[pumkin67]

Faith and Hope, Welcome:hug I remember wishing Ricky's girlfriend would be pregnant too, as bad as that sounds because I always taught my kids "no sex till married". Still, I wanted a piece of him. I felt like I was cheated out of the grandchildren that I had hoped for someday. I promise anything you feel, is more than likely something we have felt. There were things that I kept inside that I felt and then someone would write about that same thing. I makes me feel better that people understand.

I have times when my faith is so strong and I feel such strength in my heart. Then there are times like the last week when I feel so alone and so broken. I went to the Cracker Barrel the other day and was sat by a young man that looked so much like Ricky that I just sat and cried though the whole dinner. It brought back how much I miss him. I just have to hang on, Jesus will come though again like he has so many times. Keep looking up! We'll see our children soon! :rapture

[Faith&Hope]

Faith and Hope, Welcome:hug I remember wishing Ricky's girlfriend would be pregnant too, as bad as that sounds because I always taught my kids "no sex till married". Still, I wanted a piece of him. I felt like I was cheated out of the grandchildren that I had hoped for someday. I promise anything you feel, is more than likely something we have felt. There were things that I kept inside that I felt and then someone would write about that same thing. I makes me feel better that people understand.

I have times when my faith is so strong and I feel such strength in my heart. Then there are times like the last week when I feel so alone and so broken. I went to the Cracker Barrel the other day and was sat by a young man that looked so much like Ricky that I just sat and cried though the whole dinner. It brought back how much I miss him. I just have to hang on, Jesus will come though again like he has so many times. Keep looking up! We'll see our children soon! :rapture


Pumpkin,
I know exactly how you feel. Feeling so strong in Faith one day, so broken the next. I'm sorry for the loss of your precious Ricky. How long ago? Mario was called home on Dec. 22. 6 months ago. Needless to say Christmas was TOUGH. Presents under the tree from him to him. I couldn't even look at them.
I lost my dear mom Dec 24th 17 yrs. ago. Her mom, my granmother, passed on Dec. 25th yrs. ago. The Lord seems to call my family at Christmas time.
Losing my mom was so difficult. I was only 26 she was 60. I am the baby. Now 44. Losing a child, there is no grief that compares. It takes my breath away sometimes. I trust God sees the bigger picture, that He will continue to use this for His Glory.
Many have come to accept Jesus through this loss. May God help us and bring us comfort and peace that surpasses all understanding.
My heart actually aches. God Bless. ((Faith&Hope))

[Faith&Hope]

Homesick- Mercy Me





You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbye
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now


I Love you, Mario
Mom

[Amanda's mom]

So, we finally got Amanda's autopsy report this afternoon. We had to pay to get it which just doesn't seem right to me. It was hard to read but I finally understand "professional distance" because I was able to let the biologist in me take over and let the mom step back. There wasn't anything that surprised me and they listed her death as "indeterminant" rather than suicide for which I am grateful because I know that this was an accident. We still haven't been able to get a police report but the autopsy reports what the police had to tell them and, with one exception, matches what they have verbally told us...they said I had been at the store when Amanda died, which is not true.

Wow, this opens the wound up all over again. But maybe it will start to heal a little better this time.

I miss my little girl so very much.

[penbrat]

So, we finally got Amanda's autopsy report this afternoon. We had to pay to get it which just doesn't seem right to me. It was hard to read but I finally understand "professional distance" because I was able to let the biologist in me take over and let the mom step back. There wasn't anything that surprised me and they listed her death as "indeterminant" rather than suicide for which I am grateful because I know that this was an accident. We still haven't been able to get a police report but the autopsy reports what the police had to tell them and, with one exception, matches what they have verbally told us...they said I had been at the store when Amanda died, which is not true.

Wow, this opens the wound up all over again. But maybe it will start to heal a little better this time.

I miss my little girl so very much.

:hug

[Nonna]

So, we finally got Amanda's autopsy report this afternoon. We had to pay to get it which just doesn't seem right to me. It was hard to read but I finally understand "professional distance" because I was able to let the biologist in me take over and let the mom step back. There wasn't anything that surprised me and they listed her death as "indeterminant" rather than suicide for which I am grateful because I know that this was an accident. We still haven't been able to get a police report but the autopsy reports what the police had to tell them and, with one exception, matches what they have verbally told us...they said I had been at the store when Amanda died, which is not true.

Wow, this opens the wound up all over again. But maybe it will start to heal a little better this time.

I miss my little girl so very much.

:hug

[Faith&Hope]

Amanda's Mom,
I'm sure that did open up some old wounds, bringing it all back.
Rest assured, your beautiful Amanda's is resting safely, in the arms of Jesus.
Keeping you in my T's & P's.

I just ordered custom lisence plates for my car. MY MARIO
They should be here in 4 weeks.
I miss my son too. So very much.


He will wipe away every tear. God Bless ((Faith&Hope))