~ Children In Heaven ~ 2 Cor 1:3-4

[Amanda's mom]

May we all be with our children again soon. :pray

[nannyto3]

It has been 11 years for me this past February. In the beginning I wanted to read Sarah's autopsy so bad. I fought the court trying to get access to it. They wouldn't let me because of having to wait for a trial. I found out that after 2 years waiting for a trial that I no longer wanted to read it. I am so glad now at this point that I didn't. And right now I have no desire to read it ever. But Amanda's Mom I sure understand why you wanted to read it. I would have done anything that first 2 years to get a hold of that report. I think sitting in the court room during the trial and listening and seeing crime scene pictures cured me. But I so understand.

One thing I still want to this day and they won't give me is the tennis shoes she had on. She had just bought them the week before she was murdered. There is no blood on the shoes and socks and I would love to just stuff those socks in the shoes and put them at the edge of my bed. They tell me they are evidence and won't give them to me. Maybe one day.

We did have a great detective that we grew to love. Sarah's driver's license was in her back pocket. I did ask for them and the night that the murderer received his sentence the detective gave the license to me. I know that he wasn't suppose to, but bless his heart he did. They now are in a shadow box hanging in my living room with all of Sarah's special "things" in it too.

I know loss of a child is hard for dad's, but I think of us mom's who carried those precious children in our womb and took care of them as they grew and loved them with a love that only God can give.

I pray that the Rapture is soon. I want to see my Sarah again so bad. Come Lord Jesus.

[nannyto3]

Faith&Hope - Mario is so handsome. I am sure Sarah had no trouble showing him around Heaven. I am sure all of our children are friends by now!!

[Amanda's mom]

It has been 11 years for me this past February. In the beginning I wanted to read Sarah's autopsy so bad. I fought the court trying to get access to it. They wouldn't let me because of having to wait for a trial. I found out that after 2 years waiting for a trial that I no longer wanted to read it. I am so glad now at this point that I didn't. And right now I have no desire to read it ever. But Amanda's Mom I sure understand why you wanted to read it. I would have done anything that first 2 years to get a hold of that report. I think sitting in the court room during the trial and listening and seeing crime scene pictures cured me. But I so understand.

One thing I still want to this day and they won't give me is the tennis shoes she had on. She had just bought them the week before she was murdered. There is no blood on the shoes and socks and I would love to just stuff those socks in the shoes and put them at the edge of my bed. They tell me they are evidence and won't give them to me. Maybe one day.

We did have a great detective that we grew to love. Sarah's driver's license was in her back pocket. I did ask for them and the night that the murderer received his sentence the detective gave the license to me. I know that he wasn't suppose to, but bless his heart he did. They now are in a shadow box hanging in my living room with all of Sarah's special "things" in it too.

I know loss of a child is hard for dad's, but I think of us mom's who carried those precious children in our womb and took care of them as they grew and loved them with a love that only God can give.

I pray that the Rapture is soon. I want to see my Sarah again so bad. Come Lord Jesus.
:hug :bighug :hug

[TrustingHim]

My heart goes out to all of you (us) broken-hearted Moms, and how well I know the pain..........but our Jesus is faithful and I believe He will soon be wiping the tears from our eyes and turn our mourning into dancing. Our weeping may remain for a night, but JOY comes in the morning!

Love,
Trusting (missing my Mark so much!)

[Amanda's mom]

My heart goes out to all of you (us) broken-hearted Moms, and how well I know the pain..........but our Jesus is faithful and I believe He will soon be wiping the tears from our eyes and turn our mourning into dancing. Our weeping may remain for a night, but JOY comes in the morning!

Love,
Trusting (missing my Mark so much!)
:hug

[Faith&Hope]

Faith&Hope - Mario is so handsome. I am sure Sarah had no trouble showing him around Heaven. I am sure all of our children are friends by now!!

Thank you, He was just as handsome on the inside. Mario had such a good heart. He cherished his family and friends so.
That is such a great visual Nanny, All our children together, with Jesus.
Really missing him on this 1st 4th of July. He loved parties. Feeling sad today.

All our kids, friends in Heaven, watching over all of us.
That's comforting.

I am so sorry for all you must have been through with the trial and all.
God Bless you and your family.
((Faith&Hope))


Come soon, Lord.

[Faith&Hope]

My heart goes out to all of you (us) broken-hearted Moms, and how well I know the pain..........but our Jesus is faithful and I believe He will soon be wiping the tears from our eyes and turn our mourning into dancing. Our weeping may remain for a night, but JOY comes in the morning!

Love,
Trusting (missing my Mark so much!)


TrustingHim (love that screen name) Iv'e been doing alot of that lately.
Beautiful post. Thank you. It's just so fresh for me. Alot of firsts.
I know everything you posted is true. Very Comforting. Thank you, Jesus.
I really like your butterfly. So pretty!

[Faith&Hope]

May we all be with our children again soon. :pray



Yes. Soon Lord. My heart aches.

[jayna]

My family had the first BBQ for the 4th we've had in many years. My sister, her husband and son came up from So. La. Everyone is so happy and jovial, I truly do not fit in. Sometimes I just stare and wonder what everyone is laughing at. What happened to me? I'm miserably lost without my son.
But I know I'm not alone here. Thanks for giving me a place to come and read of your feelings and for me to express mine also.
I just want to bury my head under a pillow and cry right now.
Haven't got much else to say right now, just depressed.