Jenny
November 15th, 2007, 11:04 PM
Just wanted to pop in and post a quick hello. I used to go to church all the time when I was in middle school, had a church that I loved, but because my father was in the Navy, we moved away. I never had the motivation to find another church. Sadly, that's almost been ten years. In that time I have strayed from God a lot... made a lot of mistakes, hurt a lot of people... and now that I have "grown up" I've realized I need Him.
I think He's been calling out to me for a long time now, I was just to selfish listen. But these past few days, I've been hearing Him clearer than ever.
Tonight I prayed to Him for the first time in a very long time. I asked for His forgiveness, repented for all the things I have done this past decade, and asked Him back into my heart, back into my life. I just can't shake the feeling that He was trying to tell me to come back to Him before it was too late...
I noticed the "Do you think He's coming back soon?" thread, and I gotta say, I feel exactly the same way you guys do. While I don't think it will be tomorrow or next month... I get this strong feeling that it's going to be sooner than we think. I honestly feel like He's been trying to tell me these past few days. It just hit me out of nowhere, and since then I can't get it off my mind. I feel like at any moment I could just burst into tears out of both joy and sorrow. Joy because I know I'll be where I'm meant to. With Him. But at the same time, sorrow because I know that there are so many people in this world who don't believe in Him, or don't care about Him, or who aren't even thinking of Him, but only of themselves.
I've got so many emotions running through me right now, I don't even know where to begin. I do know, that starting this Sunday, my husband and I are both going to go to church. We were thinking about going after the new year, but why wait? I have to go. I would go this second if I could. He's leading me into the direction I need to go, and I am following willingly. I can't ignore Him anymore. He's been trying to get my attention for so long, I'm glad I finally paid attention.
Everything I've done these past few days has led me to Him, and I'm happy I found Him.
I'm sorry for the long post, I just needed to get this out. I needed someone else to hear it, because I am just... I can't even describe what I am feeling right now.
I think He's been calling out to me for a long time now, I was just to selfish listen. But these past few days, I've been hearing Him clearer than ever.
Tonight I prayed to Him for the first time in a very long time. I asked for His forgiveness, repented for all the things I have done this past decade, and asked Him back into my heart, back into my life. I just can't shake the feeling that He was trying to tell me to come back to Him before it was too late...
I noticed the "Do you think He's coming back soon?" thread, and I gotta say, I feel exactly the same way you guys do. While I don't think it will be tomorrow or next month... I get this strong feeling that it's going to be sooner than we think. I honestly feel like He's been trying to tell me these past few days. It just hit me out of nowhere, and since then I can't get it off my mind. I feel like at any moment I could just burst into tears out of both joy and sorrow. Joy because I know I'll be where I'm meant to. With Him. But at the same time, sorrow because I know that there are so many people in this world who don't believe in Him, or don't care about Him, or who aren't even thinking of Him, but only of themselves.
I've got so many emotions running through me right now, I don't even know where to begin. I do know, that starting this Sunday, my husband and I are both going to go to church. We were thinking about going after the new year, but why wait? I have to go. I would go this second if I could. He's leading me into the direction I need to go, and I am following willingly. I can't ignore Him anymore. He's been trying to get my attention for so long, I'm glad I finally paid attention.
Everything I've done these past few days has led me to Him, and I'm happy I found Him.
I'm sorry for the long post, I just needed to get this out. I needed someone else to hear it, because I am just... I can't even describe what I am feeling right now.