suzirees1969
May 15th, 2008, 01:18 PM
Hi,
I came in here a bit a few years ago under another name, but a lot has happened since then. I had pretty much rebelled against God due to what I was seeing from other believers (mostly in real life) and wrongly blamed others for my rebellion. So, I cut myself off from other believers.
God had always been there for me all along though. He has always been drawing me to Himself. For the longest time, I felt this longing to be in fellowship with a God of pure love and holiness but thought that God did not really exist. Yet, there was this constant tug on my heart. And although there is no salvation in church membership or even attending church, I felt this pull to start going to the church my grandfather raised his family (including my father) in. So, right before Christmas, I started traveling an hour to church, even before I surrendered to Christ. I knew I had to be there with such wonderful people. The love there is amazing. And the pastor does not compromise with God's word in order to spread God's love. It is a Quaker church, but we are of the conservative Quakers who put God's word before tradition.
In January, we had an altar call, and I knew that morning I could not go home without settling things with God. I went forward, knelt, and bawled my head of. I cannot say I have not stuggled or not fallen into some of the old sinful ways, but each and every day I am learning to depend more and more on Christ and to obey Him. I find that setting aside some time for prayer and reading of His word makes me stronger. He has done lots of things in my life, even when I was not walking with Him. And now, He has answered prayer because not only do my dad and my daughter come to church with me, but my mother is starting to as well! I had previously thought in the back of my mind that it would be impossible to get my mother in church, but I kept hoping and praying and now she is going!
Please keep me in your prayers. I want to trust and obey God and not stumble. I don't ever want to go back to the life I lived.
God bless you all!
Suzi
I came in here a bit a few years ago under another name, but a lot has happened since then. I had pretty much rebelled against God due to what I was seeing from other believers (mostly in real life) and wrongly blamed others for my rebellion. So, I cut myself off from other believers.
God had always been there for me all along though. He has always been drawing me to Himself. For the longest time, I felt this longing to be in fellowship with a God of pure love and holiness but thought that God did not really exist. Yet, there was this constant tug on my heart. And although there is no salvation in church membership or even attending church, I felt this pull to start going to the church my grandfather raised his family (including my father) in. So, right before Christmas, I started traveling an hour to church, even before I surrendered to Christ. I knew I had to be there with such wonderful people. The love there is amazing. And the pastor does not compromise with God's word in order to spread God's love. It is a Quaker church, but we are of the conservative Quakers who put God's word before tradition.
In January, we had an altar call, and I knew that morning I could not go home without settling things with God. I went forward, knelt, and bawled my head of. I cannot say I have not stuggled or not fallen into some of the old sinful ways, but each and every day I am learning to depend more and more on Christ and to obey Him. I find that setting aside some time for prayer and reading of His word makes me stronger. He has done lots of things in my life, even when I was not walking with Him. And now, He has answered prayer because not only do my dad and my daughter come to church with me, but my mother is starting to as well! I had previously thought in the back of my mind that it would be impossible to get my mother in church, but I kept hoping and praying and now she is going!
Please keep me in your prayers. I want to trust and obey God and not stumble. I don't ever want to go back to the life I lived.
God bless you all!
Suzi