NewWorldOrder
May 26th, 2008, 11:20 PM
Today just hasn't been my day and I'm completely depressed, so I'm hoping coming here and writing about it will help me feel better.
Last week the father of my youngest daughter's best friend called me and asked if I would babysit her over the summer, and he'll pay me. I agreed, since I don't work, and he's going to pay me $75 per week, and I could use the extra money. Well, we both thought it would be a good idea to get a pool for the kids to play in over the summer. He found one at Target, and we went in together to pay for it. My husband, kids and I have spent all day putting it up then taking it down, and putting it back up because it wasn't working in the first place we put it, so we moved it, and now I wish we hadn't gotten it. I hope it works in the new spot we put it. :pray
But that's not all. When he arrived with his daughter this morning, we were talking and I hear my daughter come in all up set and crying that a dog was biting our cat. I run outside and my neighbor's dog got out of their yard and was attacking my cat. He ran off, and my cat was all upset, of course. But, he's fine, just shook up as were my kids. Actually, I was more worried the dog was going to go after the kids, but he didn't. The owners were very apologetic, and felt really bad about it. They are really nice people, so really don't want to call animal control.
And to top it off, my husband has been in the worst mood all day. I think it has a lot to do with the way his father has been acting lately, and he's letting it get to him, but he can be just downright mean and starts making comments about how nobody loves him, and everything is his fault when nobody ever implied any such thing. *sigh* And not only that, he doesn't like the man I'm babysitting for, he thinks he's trying to make moves on me, so he's playing the semi-jealous husband. I'm doing this man a favor, and my husband told me it was ok, so what's his problem? I have no interest in the guy what-so-ever, and he knows it, but he still acts like a jealous boyfriend. I love my husband very, very much I just wish he would get over his little pity party. :rolleyes
We also think we have a leak somewhere in our house, and I'm praying that it's not under the house. That would cost a fortune, and we don't have a fortune. We've been spending into our savings to replace furniture, and other things, and things we don't really need, so this would eat us up. I'm working on replace on what we've spent, but that's going to take about 4 or 5 months.
So, I'm just a little depressed about some things going on. I know there isn't anything I can do about it, and I have faith that God can handle it for me. I need to lean on him, and boy do I need him right now, 'cause he's so strong and I'm so weak, and somehow I think he's letting these things happen to remind me of how much I need his strength. What an awesome God we serve, who loves us and chastens us because he loves us. Thank you for loving me.
Last week the father of my youngest daughter's best friend called me and asked if I would babysit her over the summer, and he'll pay me. I agreed, since I don't work, and he's going to pay me $75 per week, and I could use the extra money. Well, we both thought it would be a good idea to get a pool for the kids to play in over the summer. He found one at Target, and we went in together to pay for it. My husband, kids and I have spent all day putting it up then taking it down, and putting it back up because it wasn't working in the first place we put it, so we moved it, and now I wish we hadn't gotten it. I hope it works in the new spot we put it. :pray
But that's not all. When he arrived with his daughter this morning, we were talking and I hear my daughter come in all up set and crying that a dog was biting our cat. I run outside and my neighbor's dog got out of their yard and was attacking my cat. He ran off, and my cat was all upset, of course. But, he's fine, just shook up as were my kids. Actually, I was more worried the dog was going to go after the kids, but he didn't. The owners were very apologetic, and felt really bad about it. They are really nice people, so really don't want to call animal control.
And to top it off, my husband has been in the worst mood all day. I think it has a lot to do with the way his father has been acting lately, and he's letting it get to him, but he can be just downright mean and starts making comments about how nobody loves him, and everything is his fault when nobody ever implied any such thing. *sigh* And not only that, he doesn't like the man I'm babysitting for, he thinks he's trying to make moves on me, so he's playing the semi-jealous husband. I'm doing this man a favor, and my husband told me it was ok, so what's his problem? I have no interest in the guy what-so-ever, and he knows it, but he still acts like a jealous boyfriend. I love my husband very, very much I just wish he would get over his little pity party. :rolleyes
We also think we have a leak somewhere in our house, and I'm praying that it's not under the house. That would cost a fortune, and we don't have a fortune. We've been spending into our savings to replace furniture, and other things, and things we don't really need, so this would eat us up. I'm working on replace on what we've spent, but that's going to take about 4 or 5 months.
So, I'm just a little depressed about some things going on. I know there isn't anything I can do about it, and I have faith that God can handle it for me. I need to lean on him, and boy do I need him right now, 'cause he's so strong and I'm so weak, and somehow I think he's letting these things happen to remind me of how much I need his strength. What an awesome God we serve, who loves us and chastens us because he loves us. Thank you for loving me.