7peasinmypod
July 22nd, 2008, 06:49 AM
I've never openly praised the Lord for his direct answer to my prayer almost 8 years ago. I was raised in a Christian household, sent to Christian schools, but as an adult, I became ven more conservative than my parents. Much to their shock. When my oldest son my almost out of preschool...4-5 years old, I felt a pulling in my spirit. The pulling became a gnawing...not leaving me alone sensation. This pulling was concerning homeschooling. Something I had never been involved in before. At the time my oldest was between 4-5, my second was about 2-3, and my youngest son was a toddler. It was something I would never have concidered due to the demand on my time already as a sahm. < MY second son needed all kinds of home therapy for autism 5x aweek.> I was exhausted to say the least. But the pulling and tugging in my spirit wouldn't go away. Finally I threw my hands up in the air whild standing in my living room and said ,
"Ok God, why do you want me to homeschool my kids and how am I going to handle that? Don't you know how stressed and tired I am already?" I stood still for a moment feeling kind of exasperated. <I am getting chills as I write this> The Lord spoke to my spirit directly and Said" I want you to teach your children about me. Teach them my word. I want you to help make them soilders for me. That is my will for your family. Do not worry about how you will have the strength. I will be your strength and your help." I stood there with tears streaming down my face just like I am right now as I type. It was a decision that rocked my family. I have had no support from family or friends but the Lord has been faithful just like he promised. He healed 2nd oldest from autism which is a miracle I will NEVER EVER thank him enough for..he was dischared from therapy at the age of 5. I don't have that emotional drain anymore...praise the Lord. And 2 babies later..God is still being true to his word. I am watching with my own eyes the Lord, not I, make soliders out of my little boys. And concidering the dark days we now live in, I want to thank God for showing me his will, and his plan at a time, I would never have made this decision. I came down with Fibromyalgia almost couldn't move from the pain 4-5 years ago and yet the Lord was faithful by giving me the strength I needed. The pain pills didn't work and I cried out to the Lord to heal me when I was at the end of myself. The doctors had no answers to give me only prescriptions for the pain..but Jesus heard my cry. In fact there was one night that God allowd my oldest child to hear my inner cries just to show me that I was in the hands of my heavenly father and nothing could escape his ever watching eye. I was in despair over my condition. My kids were 9, 6,5 and 3 at the time. I was in so much pain, I felt like screaming why isn't this going away. But I couldn't muster the words..plus my kids would have been frightened. But God allowd my 9 year old son to hear me crying one evening when I wasn't even crying. He went to his father and asked why mommy was crying so hard. My husband came to me and asked if I was okay and observed that I hadn't been crying. My hubby told my son I was okay and my son said" No, I know I heard mommy sobbing and sobbing because she was in pain and no one knew it." I hadn't cried at all but that is just how I felt. God allowd my son to hear how I felt so my little boy could pray for me. The fibromyalgia was completely healed 2 years later. For some reason God wanted me to know that he heard me when no one else did. Back to OP, I just wanted to thank God again that he chose the path I walk on with my family, and that he spoke to me all those years ago.
"Ok God, why do you want me to homeschool my kids and how am I going to handle that? Don't you know how stressed and tired I am already?" I stood still for a moment feeling kind of exasperated. <I am getting chills as I write this> The Lord spoke to my spirit directly and Said" I want you to teach your children about me. Teach them my word. I want you to help make them soilders for me. That is my will for your family. Do not worry about how you will have the strength. I will be your strength and your help." I stood there with tears streaming down my face just like I am right now as I type. It was a decision that rocked my family. I have had no support from family or friends but the Lord has been faithful just like he promised. He healed 2nd oldest from autism which is a miracle I will NEVER EVER thank him enough for..he was dischared from therapy at the age of 5. I don't have that emotional drain anymore...praise the Lord. And 2 babies later..God is still being true to his word. I am watching with my own eyes the Lord, not I, make soliders out of my little boys. And concidering the dark days we now live in, I want to thank God for showing me his will, and his plan at a time, I would never have made this decision. I came down with Fibromyalgia almost couldn't move from the pain 4-5 years ago and yet the Lord was faithful by giving me the strength I needed. The pain pills didn't work and I cried out to the Lord to heal me when I was at the end of myself. The doctors had no answers to give me only prescriptions for the pain..but Jesus heard my cry. In fact there was one night that God allowd my oldest child to hear my inner cries just to show me that I was in the hands of my heavenly father and nothing could escape his ever watching eye. I was in despair over my condition. My kids were 9, 6,5 and 3 at the time. I was in so much pain, I felt like screaming why isn't this going away. But I couldn't muster the words..plus my kids would have been frightened. But God allowd my 9 year old son to hear me crying one evening when I wasn't even crying. He went to his father and asked why mommy was crying so hard. My husband came to me and asked if I was okay and observed that I hadn't been crying. My hubby told my son I was okay and my son said" No, I know I heard mommy sobbing and sobbing because she was in pain and no one knew it." I hadn't cried at all but that is just how I felt. God allowd my son to hear how I felt so my little boy could pray for me. The fibromyalgia was completely healed 2 years later. For some reason God wanted me to know that he heard me when no one else did. Back to OP, I just wanted to thank God again that he chose the path I walk on with my family, and that he spoke to me all those years ago.