sopo
August 4th, 2008, 07:16 PM
Hi, I have been reading the RR site for the past week and I love it. I am from a Christian upbringing and am more ready for the rapture than anyone I know. I lost my husband 15 days ago (yes, I'm counting and I have almost gotten through Day 15). It was quite a shock even though he was battling cancer. We were completely convinced that God was going to heal him and yes, before you say it, I know He has healed him, but we were convinced in our faith that he would live and declare the works of the Lord.
Pat had quite the testimony. He had been saved for 11 years but had just recently decided to openly share his testimony with his family and others. He had been involved in the occult for 38 years before we met. God delivered him and set him free and he had people from all over the world praying for him the last few months. His positiveness and faith touched many lives including hardcore doctors and nurses.
I am secure in the fact that he is in heaven. I know he is healed but I am having a terrible time making it through each day. Pat and I were what some called 'soulmates'. We did everything together, owned a website business so worked together, were best friends. I think we were apart one night in 11 years. We were together 24 hours of every single day and it is so very hard to try and get through them without him by my side. I know God's grace is sufficient for each day so I get up each morning and say 'this is day __ (15 today) and either God will come back for us..or for me... or He will get me through the day. I cry a lot but my main comfort is in knowing the rapture is coming soon.
I read a thread on joy just now and funny as it was our topic at church yesterday. I had told Pat just weeks before he went into the hospital that his gift from God was JOY. He could tell when anyone, friend or stranger was having a bad day and say or do something to make them laugh. He was joy. He was definitely my joy. Now I feel as if my joy is gone. I go over and over that verse, weeping endures for a night but joy comes in the morning and I keep telling myself that the morning will come soon. I am okay with no joy for now as I know it will come soon. We will be reunited again.
Anyway, I have dedicated myself to carrying on Pat's work of sharing his testimony. Some think I am obsessing on the rapture or I am nuts. I guess God is a pretty good subject to obsess about. :) I tell everyone I see about the rapture. I have Pat's website with his testimony I give out on cards to people. I have offered to design a site for an evangelist at church. I am doing all I can think of to keep busy doing God's work. I am shamefully neglecting other things though as they just do not seem as important. We have a cattery and actually helped develop a new breed of cats. Now I am placing most of my cats as I feel we won't be here much longer to continue and it is useless as that is time I could be sharing God's word.
I'm sorry this is so long. I am just missing Pat so much. I am trying to fill up my time by doing everything I can to bring people to heaven. I am not trying to buy my way in with good works. I am completely ready to go in my heart. I am just trying to stay busy so I don't miss him so much (as if that's possible). I can't wait to participate in your discussions... others that are as ready as me to be raptured is a gift in itself after everyone thinking I am just losing it with grief. They say, yeah, God's coming back....someday and then plan for their future years down the road. Personally I am hoping for a 'before Christmas' rapture. I can't bear the thought of Christmas without my Pat. Please keep me in your prayers, that I continue in God's will. That He shows me what He wants me to do as I am sure there is a job there or he would not have left me behind.
Stephanie
www.terminallyhealed.com
Pat had quite the testimony. He had been saved for 11 years but had just recently decided to openly share his testimony with his family and others. He had been involved in the occult for 38 years before we met. God delivered him and set him free and he had people from all over the world praying for him the last few months. His positiveness and faith touched many lives including hardcore doctors and nurses.
I am secure in the fact that he is in heaven. I know he is healed but I am having a terrible time making it through each day. Pat and I were what some called 'soulmates'. We did everything together, owned a website business so worked together, were best friends. I think we were apart one night in 11 years. We were together 24 hours of every single day and it is so very hard to try and get through them without him by my side. I know God's grace is sufficient for each day so I get up each morning and say 'this is day __ (15 today) and either God will come back for us..or for me... or He will get me through the day. I cry a lot but my main comfort is in knowing the rapture is coming soon.
I read a thread on joy just now and funny as it was our topic at church yesterday. I had told Pat just weeks before he went into the hospital that his gift from God was JOY. He could tell when anyone, friend or stranger was having a bad day and say or do something to make them laugh. He was joy. He was definitely my joy. Now I feel as if my joy is gone. I go over and over that verse, weeping endures for a night but joy comes in the morning and I keep telling myself that the morning will come soon. I am okay with no joy for now as I know it will come soon. We will be reunited again.
Anyway, I have dedicated myself to carrying on Pat's work of sharing his testimony. Some think I am obsessing on the rapture or I am nuts. I guess God is a pretty good subject to obsess about. :) I tell everyone I see about the rapture. I have Pat's website with his testimony I give out on cards to people. I have offered to design a site for an evangelist at church. I am doing all I can think of to keep busy doing God's work. I am shamefully neglecting other things though as they just do not seem as important. We have a cattery and actually helped develop a new breed of cats. Now I am placing most of my cats as I feel we won't be here much longer to continue and it is useless as that is time I could be sharing God's word.
I'm sorry this is so long. I am just missing Pat so much. I am trying to fill up my time by doing everything I can to bring people to heaven. I am not trying to buy my way in with good works. I am completely ready to go in my heart. I am just trying to stay busy so I don't miss him so much (as if that's possible). I can't wait to participate in your discussions... others that are as ready as me to be raptured is a gift in itself after everyone thinking I am just losing it with grief. They say, yeah, God's coming back....someday and then plan for their future years down the road. Personally I am hoping for a 'before Christmas' rapture. I can't bear the thought of Christmas without my Pat. Please keep me in your prayers, that I continue in God's will. That He shows me what He wants me to do as I am sure there is a job there or he would not have left me behind.
Stephanie
www.terminallyhealed.com