Want to go home.......

[newskinagain]

I remember my time in the military doing 12 mile road marches. While on that last one or two miles, I kept trying to make that finish line appear by thought alone. The pain was intense, but I couldnt stop until I had finished the march. I yearned so hard to finish the race, thinking of getting that dead weight off of my back, setting my weapon down and unlacing my boots, drinking cool water and seeing my wife again. Occasionally I would pass a fellow soldier and offer him encouragement and help. Sometimes carrying his weapon, sometimes offering some of my water, sometimes just being a presence to keep pace with. A few times I was that soldier who needed assistance, be it mentally or physically. Our Lord allways put someone there to help me when I needed it. Looking back The road marches went quickly, only being 1.75 to 2.25 hours and the pain is only a distant memory, which is padded by the fact I will never have to endure it again.

Now I am in a different military, on another march. Only this time there is no set finish line. I have to keep going, immersed in the pain from the sin I cannot stop committing, and the sin I see others so willingly commit both innocent and deliberately. I yearn so hard for the finish line that I know is coming, thinking of getting that burden of sin off my back, putting it down at the foot of the cross. Retiring my weapon for a time, sitting beside cool waters, drinking from the River of Life. Occasionally I meet a fellow Brother or Sister, or even an unredeamed one, and I can offer him spiritual encouragement from our Comforter, share his/her burden for a while, try to show them how to never thirst again. More than I would like to admit, I have been the one needing encouragement and help, and prais Hashem, He allways is there for me when I need it! When we have been there ten thousand years, bright and shining as the sun, and look back to where we are now, this race will not look to be as long as it feels it is now. The pain of sin, both ours and others will be a distant memory, and We will be able to thank Yeshua personally for the fact we will never have to endure it again!

My dear brothers and sisters in Yeshua, we truely are surrounded by such a great crowd of witnesses that are beside Yeshua and are cheering us on! Let us provide them a spectacle worth watching! Shalom all and hang in there, you are not alone, you are not forgotten!

Great analogy, and I have been waiting about 20 years though the last few have seemed more intense.

[RadiantSON]

Hello, I'm a newbie to posting. Professional Lurker.

Every morning when that alarm goes off I wonder "why, why couldn't I have woken up in Heaven last night". I want to hear a trumpet not an alarm clock when I'm sleeping. I want out of here in the worst way. I drive by a cemetary everyday, and everyday I look over and think "it would be awesome to see the graves opening up right now". But nothing.

My soul aches and I'm tired. I'm tired of being in a place that I don't belong.

Please Lord, please come quickly!!!!

[LindaLee]

Been ready for a very very long time also.
My Dad and Brother in law died over the last 3 years, and I was thinking about a month ago how they were with the Lord...and thought they had one up on me. Can't wait to see Jesus and my family members!

[sunshine2777]

I remember my time in the military doing 12 mile road marches. While on that last one or two miles, I kept trying to make that finish line appear by thought alone. The pain was intense, but I couldnt stop until I had finished the march. I yearned so hard to finish the race, thinking of getting that dead weight off of my back, setting my weapon down and unlacing my boots, drinking cool water and seeing my wife again. Occasionally I would pass a fellow soldier and offer him encouragement and help. Sometimes carrying his weapon, sometimes offering some of my water, sometimes just being a presence to keep pace with. A few times I was that soldier who needed assistance, be it mentally or physically. Our Lord allways put someone there to help me when I needed it. Looking back The road marches went quickly, only being 1.75 to 2.25 hours and the pain is only a distant memory, which is padded by the fact I will never have to endure it again.

Now I am in a different military, on another march. Only this time there is no set finish line. I have to keep going, immersed in the pain from the sin I cannot stop committing, and the sin I see others so willingly commit both innocent and deliberately. I yearn so hard for the finish line that I know is coming, thinking of getting that burden of sin off my back, putting it down at the foot of the cross. Retiring my weapon for a time, sitting beside cool waters, drinking from the River of Life. Occasionally I meet a fellow Brother or Sister, or even an unredeamed one, and I can offer him spiritual encouragement from our Comforter, share his/her burden for a while, try to show them how to never thirst again. More than I would like to admit, I have been the one needing encouragement and help, and prais Hashem, He allways is there for me when I need it! When we have been there ten thousand years, bright and shining as the sun, and look back to where we are now, this race will not look to be as long as it feels it is now. The pain of sin, both ours and others will be a distant memory, and We will be able to thank Yeshua personally for the fact we will never have to endure it again!

My dear brothers and sisters in Yeshua, we truely are surrounded by such a great crowd of witnesses that are beside Yeshua and are cheering us on! Let us provide them a spectacle worth watching! Shalom all and hang in there, you are not alone, you are not forgotten!

Oh my goodness..that is such a wonderful way to look at it. Thank you so much for letting God reach out through those written words. You must have a the wonderful gift of encouragement! Something sorely needed in this world today. Thanks!!!:)... ps. Our walk/race could never be as painful or long as His walk to Golgotha (sp?) and the cross.

[NewWine06]

I remember my time in the military doing 12 mile road marches. While on that last one or two miles, I kept trying to make that finish line appear by thought alone. The pain was intense, but I couldnt stop until I had finished the march. I yearned so hard to finish the race, thinking of getting that dead weight off of my back, setting my weapon down and unlacing my boots, drinking cool water and seeing my wife again. Occasionally I would pass a fellow soldier and offer him encouragement and help. Sometimes carrying his weapon, sometimes offering some of my water, sometimes just being a presence to keep pace with. A few times I was that soldier who needed assistance, be it mentally or physically. Our Lord allways put someone there to help me when I needed it. Looking back The road marches went quickly, only being 1.75 to 2.25 hours and the pain is only a distant memory, which is padded by the fact I will never have to endure it again.

Now I am in a different military, on another march. Only this time there is no set finish line. I have to keep going, immersed in the pain from the sin I cannot stop committing, and the sin I see others so willingly commit both innocent and deliberately. I yearn so hard for the finish line that I know is coming, thinking of getting that burden of sin off my back, putting it down at the foot of the cross. Retiring my weapon for a time, sitting beside cool waters, drinking from the River of Life. Occasionally I meet a fellow Brother or Sister, or even an unredeamed one, and I can offer him spiritual encouragement from our Comforter, share his/her burden for a while, try to show them how to never thirst again. More than I would like to admit, I have been the one needing encouragement and help, and prais Hashem, He allways is there for me when I need it! When we have been there ten thousand years, bright and shining as the sun, and look back to where we are now, this race will not look to be as long as it feels it is now. The pain of sin, both ours and others will be a distant memory, and We will be able to thank Yeshua personally for the fact we will never have to endure it again!

My dear brothers and sisters in Yeshua, we truely are surrounded by such a great crowd of witnesses that are beside Yeshua and are cheering us on! Let us provide them a spectacle worth watching! Shalom all and hang in there, you are not alone, you are not forgotten!

That was so well put; thanks for that! It really sums up how I feel and I identify w/ the person who was asking “Do I really want to get out of here so I can be w/ Jesus, or am I just looking for an escape from life’s trials?” I used to worry about that too, but now I don’t.

My life used to be a nightmare and even though unless you knew me you wouldn’t have any idea of the depth of my pain (addiction/depression that I hid really well for the most part...Until I couldn’t do it anymore) I just wanted to die; I would actually be disappointed to find that I’d not died in my sleep and had to soldier on thru another awful day.

Now, 2.5 yrs in recovery, on meds for the depression and successfully back in University at age 38, doing well and being promoted at a Job that, though I’m not crazy about it does pay a decent wage I still am disappointed when I wake up but not for the same reasons as before.

Even though life is so much better (from a worldly point)I know it’s still not the way God intended it for his children; I just read the news and look at the world around me and the way people in it treat each other. I still struggle with my sin nature daily with varying degrees of success and sometimes I AM that guy screaming at people on the freeway, etc and it just makes me feel like I’m never going to be sufficiently “Christ-like” but I keep trying.

I have never, and at this point DON'T WANT TO feel "at home" in this world as it is now. We're just visiting enemy occupied territory for right now, waitng for the cavalry to show and doing what good we can while we wait.

I almost wish that I could give up my free-will voluntarily if I could send my sin nature away with it, can anyone relate? :)

[LAURIEH]

I remember my time in the military doing 12 mile road marches. While on that last one or two miles, I kept trying to make that finish line appear by thought alone. The pain was intense, but I couldnt stop until I had finished the march. I yearned so hard to finish the race, thinking of getting that dead weight off of my back, setting my weapon down and unlacing my boots, drinking cool water and seeing my wife again. Occasionally I would pass a fellow soldier and offer him encouragement and help. Sometimes carrying his weapon, sometimes offering some of my water, sometimes just being a presence to keep pace with. A few times I was that soldier who needed assistance, be it mentally or physically. Our Lord allways put someone there to help me when I needed it. Looking back The road marches went quickly, only being 1.75 to 2.25 hours and the pain is only a distant memory, which is padded by the fact I will never have to endure it again.

Now I am in a different military, on another march. Only this time there is no set finish line. I have to keep going, immersed in the pain from the sin I cannot stop committing, and the sin I see others so willingly commit both innocent and deliberately. I yearn so hard for the finish line that I know is coming, thinking of getting that burden of sin off my back, putting it down at the foot of the cross. Retiring my weapon for a time, sitting beside cool waters, drinking from the River of Life. Occasionally I meet a fellow Brother or Sister, or even an unredeamed one, and I can offer him spiritual encouragement from our Comforter, share his/her burden for a while, try to show them how to never thirst again. More than I would like to admit, I have been the one needing encouragement and help, and prais Hashem, He allways is there for me when I need it! When we have been there ten thousand years, bright and shining as the sun, and look back to where we are now, this race will not look to be as long as it feels it is now. The pain of sin, both ours and others will be a distant memory, and We will be able to thank Yeshua personally for the fact we will never have to endure it again!

My dear brothers and sisters in Yeshua, we truely are surrounded by such a great crowd of witnesses that are beside Yeshua and are cheering us on! Let us provide them a spectacle worth watching! Shalom all and hang in there, you are not alone, you are not forgotten!

Thank you.. I really needed to hear that.. I yearn for Him...but I will give my all until He comes..

[lendingheart]

walking down the sidewalk of the nearby town... they have beautiful flower boxes in the windows of the stores,arts and craft stores, benches and trees, christian college town.

as we were walking today i was tring to take where we were and upgrade it to heaven status. Asking my husband if he thought there would be stores in heaven, no money to buy, you just go in and get. These artist , it is there passion and they might want to sit for years and work with their hands, just for fun, and then leave the store door wide open when they left.... just let people come and look and take for free what they want.

I know this might sound silly to some, but really there are people that love to work. Even waitressing! I mean imagine you are in heaven where there is no sin, rudness, greed, theft, you just hang out and listen to people tell stories, enjoy their company.... i would be happy to work in a resturant for a while, where there was no rush, no need to "please the costomer" to keep your job, just to pay the rent.... you would be happy to serve otrhers, the mansion is paid for.... you are just there to hang out and have good food ....

i imagine the streets have little stores or something on each side.... no big 4 lane highways or anything.... just a big sidewalk, buildings on each side... everything in walking distance.... maybe a bicycle , if that is your pleasure, or some other kind of new heavenly transport.

Perfect temperature, birds singing, sweet smell of flowers, or a bakery, candles. of course on down the road it is wide open fileds, meadows, streams and such. My idea of heaven.

i want to go home

[lendingheart]

I think it's perfectly normal to want to go to our real home. For Christians, I think our spirit quickens at the thought of returning to be with our Lord, in a place where HIS rules come first. It's a little like being at work and looking at the clock -- we know we're here to do a job, we want to do it well, but we still look forward SO much to being able to return to the place we love best -- HOME!

you know that is one sure sign that a person is saved i think.... how many people, non believers, do you here not wanting to leave this place. They grip about some things they would liketo change, but they love the things they do here over all. undulging in the sins.

a true christias sprirt calls out to go home. It feels like a stranger in a strange land here. The sin that you use to enjoy are sickening to you now. Sure even saved we slip and sin still, hopefully not as bad as we use to, but the second we do them.... we feel the guilt.

we hate temptation.... we are not happy to sin, or like it... we want to be free from it. We are forgiven Praise God, but the temptation is still around, and of course just seeing other sin in some ways that they do makes us mad... murders, rapist.... hard to keep from screaming.

yes, wanting to go home, dreaming of home is a sure sign you are a child of God!

[NewWine06]

a true christias sprirt calls out to go home. It feels like a stranger in a strange land here. The sin that you use to enjoy are sickening to you now. Sure even saved we slip and sin still, hopefully not as bad as we use to, but the second we do them.... we feel the guilt.

we hate temptation.... we are not happy to sin, or like it... we want to be free from it. We are forgiven Praise God, but the temptation is still around, and of course just seeing other sin in some ways that they do makes us mad... murders, rapist.... hard to keep from screaming.

yes, wanting to go home, dreaming of home is a sure sign you are a child of God!

You really managed to convey what I feel; I am so sick of being tempted let alone yielding to it; that’s what I mean when I say I would gladly yield my free will to be rid of my Sin nature.

When I do sin, I’m no longer able to savor it the way I could when I wasn’t walking in God’s love; I’m convicted of it right away now, which I find very encouraging.

The fact that I don’t enjoy it and yet often yield to it just shows me how necessary God’s grace and redemption is to me; I have no illusions about being some pillar of righteousness and “holier than though” person.

I’ve never had a problem accepting the fact that yes, I do deserve hell un-like a lot of psuedo-Christians who were “born into” Christianity and lived dirt free lives (from a worldly standpoint) thinking that because they “Do” good, or at least don't do wrong they “are” good and thus don't "need" forgiveness

I look forward to God showing me the true place he has for me in his kingdom where I will fit in and be part of his family with my new nature, able to not only see sin for the rot and ruin it is but no longer be tempted by it.

[Born Again 2006]

So many of you have eloquently stated my hearts desire to be in the presence of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I pray every day asking for Jesus to call us home. I long to be "out of this world" and basking in the glorius light of Jesus! Come soon Lord Jesus is our prayer!