I'm so depressed!

[heart_changed99]

It has been 3 months since my miscarriage. Every month so far has been a let down (doctor okay'd ttc after first cycle). I am starting to lose hope. I am getting to the point to where I don't even want to hear about other women and their pregnancies (No, I've been there).

Seriously, not a month goes by that I am not reminded of my miscarriage. It always pops in my head that I would be this many weeks now and not anymore because of the early termination of pregnancy! On top of that, having to see the people who are still pregnant that have the same due date as I did. Why?! Why?! This has taken over a part of my personality. I hate it! I feel like I have done something to bring this upon myself.

Maybe its just my moods - and I hope it is, but I have been crying all morning. I already have one child, but why does it have to hurt so bad when you have a miscarriage?

I just want to go home to a place where this heartbreak doesn't exist. Please pray for me. I am mourning alone. My husband is very understanding, but he does not mourn like I do. I try not to think about it, but like I said, its hard not to. I mean, you have the people you know IRL who are pregnant, then you come to boards like these and there are pregnant women. I can't expect people to stop their lives and pity poor ol' me because I had a miscarriage. But at the same time, I am still stuck in that time where I lost the baby. I do ok with a lot of prayer, but every month when dear aunt flow pounces on the door, all those emotions come flooding back.

I am the one who started the pregnant thread!! How ironic is that?!

[Deepcallstodeep]

Praying for you, for the Lord to comfort you and give you peace... and sending hugs. :hug :pray

[JesusFreak92]

:pray

[ZeldaCA]

First of all, big :hug to you.

I know how you feel. I lost a baby at the three month mark, and it literally took a couple of years (and another baby) to stop dwelling on the fact that her birthday would have been in February, or that she'd be this old or that old now. I still think about it sometimes, and she would be 16 years old this next February!

It's just not a wound that heals quickly! And even after I became pregnant again, instead of it being joyous, I was terrified of having another miscarriage, so I didn't really relax until I was into my sixth month of pregnancy. It's just something that stays with you. That little person growing inside you was already loved and planned for, so it is like any death -- it just takes a lot of time to heal from.

There is a wonderful book out there, don't know the author, but it's called, "I'll Hold You In Heaven," about the loss. I found it very comforting.

I wish I could give you more concrete advice, but the truth is, it just takes a lot of time, and a lot of tears will flow before it finally feels better. Stay close to God, and ask him to take care of your little one until you meet him/her in Heaven!

[ByHisGrace]

I can relate. The doctor told me not to have any babies, even though I love babies. The girls in my family are having babies left and right. I have to go to the their showers, buy them baby gifts, smile and rejoice with them. For the most part I am thrilled for them but of course there's that part of me that just wants to cry and feel sorry for myself. I don't think about that too much. Sunday I have to go to a bridal shower and I know a cousin of mine will be there toting her newborn around with her. We'll "ooh and ahh" over her baby.
I know a part of me will thinking "it must be nice".

Be happy that you have one child. I know you want more but some women can't even have one. I'll pray for you though. Miscarriages can be very tough and take a long time to get through. But Jesus does give healing.

[Seemomgonuts]

I am mourning alone. My husband is very understanding, but he does not mourn like I do. I try not to think about it, but like I said, its hard not to.

First of all. :hug


I can relate to what you just said, I felt alone too, and I mourned like crazy. My DH came to me about a year after it happened when I was once again sitting on the floor crying and he asked me if we could say goodbye to her together (I already had a name). I think that a funeral brings closure and that is one element to a miscarriage that you lack. He and I sat there and said our goodbyes and cried. It really helped. I still get sad now and then, but nothing like before. Would your DH be willing to do this with you?


Praying for you hon. :pray

[Sing4Him]

I also went through a miscarriage years ago after years of secondary infertility. It was a horribly sad thing to go through and I placed my heart break in the Lord's sovereignty. He is the one who holds my baby-- your baby-- and other babies in the palm of His hand.(2 Sam. 12:22,23) Our babies were not meant to live in this wretched, depraved world, but live in the presence of the glory of the Savior. When viewing my miscarriage in this realm, I can rejoice and KNOW that my upcoming reunion with this child will be more joyful than anything here on earth! My baby is safe with Jesus, waiting for upcoming day we are together again! (yours also!)


I pray this may give you come comfort and hope. Surely the Lord has plans for you in regards to your future and more children. His will be done.

Praying for you.. look forward.. not backwards..

I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. Phil. 3:13


:hug:hug:pray:pray

[Rebekah]

Praying for you. May God wrap his arms around you at this time.

I have had two miscarraiges. I do not have any 'living' children. My husband and I are both happy with or without children, yet those miscarraiges wrecked havok with my thoughts for weeks, months. The pregnancies weren't even planned, yet the loss impacted my spirit. My drive. It took a lot of prayers, from myself, husband and others before I felt okay.

When people ask if I have children, I say no, but I have this twinge of guilt for not acknowledging the two that were miscarried.

[funmudder]

:hug

[watchman]

Too all who have, and will lose a child through miscarriage or to an accident or illness.

The mother's empty arms and bruised heart, are all witnesses to G-d and all of creation that there is no such thing as an "unwanted child", it will be the judgment against the myth of abortion and any argument to justify it.

G-d will be your recompense and your comfort and reward will be great in the World to Come.

Every lost child belongs to every one of you.

Every last one of them is loved.

G-d knows.