As some of you may know my son has been having some sort of "facing down demons" from his past,wanting to fix wrongs etc. I won't go into details here...much of it has been brought before the Lord and the prayers from this board and myself have been answered.
Some issues are there as my son continues to do some soul searching...
The biggest issue he had to face down was the fact that he gave his daughter up for adoption to the mother and her new husband. It has haunted him since the day he made that decision...I know this because sometimes he did talk about it.That was about 5 years ago.

There were many reasons...both young,poor,..lots of reasons,some understandable,some selfish.

The other night my son really was in turmoil..not knowing how to fix it .
The Lord had brought them back together once before when we did not know where my grandaughter was...however,neither acted in a way that God would have them be and consequently the adoption happened.
I know God would bring her back to us...even if it was after she turned 18...it was a situation I finally did let go and leave it with God. Yes,the pain and heartache was always there,but I had peace it would be answered.
The other night my son was so remorseful and he got angry when I tried to say how I felt. (He is still questioning his beliefs).
Basically,I just said..you have 2 choices. Wait until she is 18 and she looks for you OR contact her mom and talk...you might get kicked in the teeth,but you won't know unless you try.
I left his home and just once again told the Lord it was His problem...I did not know what to do.
I don't know if any of you remember what chaos,bedlam everything was at that time.
My son took that chance and contacted the mom (there IS some good in this technical age!) It was a very big step for him to do this.
They conversed via email a couple days and found out some terrible lies that had been told.
To try and shorten this, my son met his daughter and her mom tonight.In a public place and she knows she has another daddy out there but at this time just thinks this was an old friend of mommy's...a good move as of this point in time.Although she would only have to look at some photos of her dad as a kid and her and in a few years she will know anyway. ..no denying who dad is!
My son and the mom had a really nice time.Both have grown up a lot ...to her credit the mom has done well...a few setbacks in her life,but handles it well (apparently).My son was amazed at how well they got along.
I now have pics of my grandaughter from the past 5 years of her life and she hopefully will know who her dad is soon...when the time is right
I really hope I can get to see her...not pushing for that at this moment...(yes..that is really hard) just seeing where the Lord takes it from here.
But I can't stop smiling or get the praise out of my heart. It has been a long 5 years,but to see the real joy on my son's face tonight...priceless!