I know many of us have many unsaved family members, spouses, parents, sisters, brothers, etc.
But, as a parent, I think having an unsaved child(ren), no matter how old they are, is heartwretching and I am having a very difficult time with this.
As a parent we have tried to protect our children since birth and now when they don't know Jesus, it is like watching them die a slow death.
I have 2 children, a son 44 and a daughter 43.
My daughter is not saved, lives in Florida, never married, no children, beautiful, but is a party girl. She doesn't talk to me much or to the rest of the family either. I think deep down she is not as happy as she pretends to be. If I mention Jesus to her, she tells me to have fun thinking about my "afterlife" while she does everything she can to enjoy this one.
My son wa saved over 20 years ago during a relationship with a born again believer. All 3 of us attended church together. He was a changed man. But the relatioship ended and my son didn't show alot of fruit in later years, But, he always assured me he knew Jesus and would be in Heaven with me. Always! A couple months ago he told me he changed his mind and he thinks there are many ways to Heaven as he can't fathom the thought that his paternal grandparents whom he adored (but were as Catholic as they come) are in Hell. My ex in laws were into all the RCC rituals and they couldn't sleep if they didn't recieve the Eucharist each day. They adored Mother Mary and only prayed to her, not to Jesus. They were heartbroken when their only son married me. I was unsaved then, I didn't even know Jesus and they were trying to convert me to Mother Mary worship. I cried like a baby when my son told me he changed his mind a couple months ago. I lost it. He married a Catholic, I think he was influenced.
I have to admit that knowing the Rapture is upon us, I am already grieving for my children. I can't stand the agony, even though I know in my heart that if God wants them for His own, He will find a way.
This may sound awful, but I think I could deal better if they died KNOWING Jesus (prior to the Rapture) then knowing that they could die without knowing Jesus or that we could be taken at any time and they will be left behind. I could be happier and more at peace with an absolute of their salvation because I would know that their death would only be a temporary separation. I am praising God that in His wisdom we won't remember our unsaved children (I take it that way as there will not be sadness in Heaven) and if we remembered, we would feel sad. Right?
I have many lost relatives but my children are my children. As I said, as parents, we are programmed to make sure they are okay at all cost and when we lose that control it is very difficult.
How do you find joy when you are a parent of lost children and you never know when the phone will ring with bad news with an accident or we never know when we will be raptured when things appear that it will likely be soon?
I can feel myself going down about this ever since my son told me he had a change of heart. I at least had one child that loved the Lord. My son was here hanging pictures last week and I brought up Jesus and the end times and he glazed over.
How do we as parents cope? I pray but I feel this heaviness taking over me. Does anyone with unsaved children feel this to the point that it is affecting their life and not in a good way?