Patti,
We've all been there--as a matter of fact, I've been on the ropes for the past 2 weeks ducking and blocking attacks from the enemy. He's relentless against God's chosen ones. One thing I always remind myself when I'm brought to task with this lie from the pit of hell--it's Grace not works! Nobody can ever earn their salvation--we'd all have the same outcome if that was the case as you so eloquently outlined above.
John 6:29, Romans 10:9-10, John 14:6 (check, check, check).....
God armed us with his word....and Thank God we're not dependent on feelings for such matters. I really hurt for people who go thru life thinking their hellbound yet are truly repentant/forgiven sinners who accept the Lord Jesus.
Ioan 14:6 Dicit ei Iesus ego sum via et veritas et vita nemo venit ad Patrem nisi per me.
Romani 10:9 quia si confitearis in ore tuo Dominum Iesum et in corde tuo credideris quod Deus illum excitavit ex mortuis salvus eris
I don't always double down on failure,
but when I do,
I vote for Obama,
Stay jobless, my friends.